At what point does one just give up the fight against injustice? One minute I think it is just about my case so what the hell, just give up. Then I remind myself it isn’t just about me, it is about all the others out there, not just in Australia but globally. I remember the poor young father who ended up committing suicide fighting the USA system. I wrote about it somewhere but I can’t find it now – too many articles here to search through. The cases become more numerous as the population of the world becomes more mobile. Legislation doesn’t keep up with the the realities of life.
It seems I fight alone, however, and that is damn hard work. I don’t mean alone when we were fighting for the visa, we had a wonderful support team then. I mean now, fighting for recovery of the costs of the fight. It is impossible, really, to fight on alone, but there is no more money to fund yet another legal battle. Justice, it seems, is only available to those who can afford justice.
The other day I wrote:
Paper warfare. It becomes paper warfare and I understand why people just give up. Let Goliath win. The battle for fairness, respect and recompense is just too hard, takes too much time, too much effort. We poor taxpayers have jobs to go to, children to raise, homes to run. Battling Goliath just becomes another problem we don’t need, so we give up and they win. So it continues and nothing changes.
Today I feel like giving up. I feel I am just fighting a losing battle. This was said to me today, “ … it’s the Australian people you are contending with. Politicians reflect sentiment“. True statement perhaps, when you consider this comment, below, I received on this site some time ago and didn’t allow through moderation. I was never going to publish it, but it fits with the statement made to me today, “politicians reflect sentiment”. Is this a majority Australian sentiment?
You whinge too much about Australia. maybe you ought to just go back and live in Nigeria with your husband and kids.
Everything about your website is pure whinging about your personal life.
Guess what, no one gives a rats ass.
And for fuck sake, Australia does not owe you anything.
It’s obvious that your previous life was a major catastrophe, and now you’re stuck with 4 kids and a husband.
At this age of yours, one can only wonder what did you do to mess your life up.
You are more than welcome to leave Australia.
Notice the last line: “You are more than welcome to leave Australia.” How many other Australian readers, I wonder, have similar thoughts? How many actually hate me THAT much for fighting an unjust system? As for the line of “Australia doesn’t own you anything” – too bloody right Australia does. What the hell did I pay taxes for, over nearly 40 years, may I ask? Yes, Australia does owe me. Australia owes me justice, fairness, an apology and recompense.
I was tempted to delete the second paragraph, it is such a personal attack. I decided to let it stand, for I can’t fathom such hatred from a stranger. Why would anyone express such vitriol? I don’t understand.
Someone else suggested as this is election year, a petition might be a good strategy. My reply was I don’t think there would be the support. People see this as a personal battle, not a battle to change a system that is unfair, unjust and destroys lives – the lives of citizens. My case is an example only. Just one example. GetUp! sent me a link: I looked at it. It all just seemed too hard. What on earth would I call the petition anyway? Surely my energies are better deployed publishing my book, hopefully it will have a greater impact that a petition.
I wonder if I were a man would I be treated the same way? Is this an example of the underlying misogyny in this country? Should I just be ironing, I wonder? But if I ask that question, I’ll be accused of playing the “gender card”. I suppose I could ask our Prime Minister, given she is pretty experienced on the question of misogyny, but it is her government in charge, so I don’t think that would help. Is it because my husband is black? Well, if I say that I’ll be accused of playing the “race card”. Or accused of just plain old “whinging” as the hater above accuses me.
A third person suggested to me a day or so ago that perhaps a certain department is still stacked with Howard appointees. I have no idea, but it is an interesting question.
A beta reader told me yesterday my book made her cry in parts. Another said the same thing today. Good. I hope it makes a lot of people cry. I hope it makes people rethink their attitudes.
I hope no other couple have to go through what we went through, yet I know from the comments and emails I receive and the search terms that find this site, many couples are suffering.
Do I just give up the fight against injustice? I don’t know. I’ll sleep on it. I’m tired of the battle, but I also fail to see why I, or anyone in my situation, should pay such a high price for justice.
- Heads or tails? Are lives so unimportant? (teamoyeniyi.com)