Writing and Reflecting
As I am writing our book, I am working through older articles on this site. It is my record of the emotional trauma. Emails and correspondence give me the facts of what happened when, but this site gives me the “how were we feeling” aspect.
Yesterday, as I wrote, I reviewed the article “Difficult Day“. My second paragraph reads:
Of all weeks for this to happen, we did not need it to be THIS week when we are stressed enough waiting for the decision.
I don’t know what “this” was! Was it just the fact we had spent a week’s worth of phone call funds in a day? I don’t for the life of me remember and my writing isn’t clear enough for me to work it out! I THINK it was just the phone calls and SMS messages I was worried abut at the time, for evey cent counted. Yet it might have been something more that I couldn’t write about at the time for security reasons. I will have to fire up my old mobile phone and check the text messages from those dark days to see if I can get to the bottom of it.
The fact I don’t know, now, for sure exactly what I was referring to then is a clear indication of just how stressed I was during the month of November 2010. I sat and looked at that short article for ages.
Thank goodness those days are over!